Thoughts of a Narcoleptic Mind

I get so overly excited when I remember the spelling of a multi syllable word but most could never  imagine the constant struggle just to form a simple sentence because my brain can't grasp a hold of a single noun, or adjective or verb Just the act of thinking sometimes brings misery How can something that should be so automatic become something that now takes such difficulty And please don't mistake my attempt at awareness as a desperate search for sympathy Because by God's hand I am a much stronger person internally I can read a single paragraph two or three times and still have no comprehension There is no cohesion of words just a jumbled up litany of sentences There's this fog in my brain and a dense acid rain that prevents rarely a semblance of audible or written knowledge to get through My memory both long term and short is gone I must painstakingly take notes on everything I do from dusk until dawn I can forget what I've done in a single second I can blink

Today I was reading an article that a very special person took the time out of her life for. She took the time to let strangers see what it is like for her everyday living with Narcolepsy. It was not something she had to do but something she wanted to do in an effort to increase awareness.  Being PWN's, (persons with Narcolepsy ) we already know there is a stigma attached to the disease.  Yes, it is officially classified as an auto-immunological disease as well as a neurological disorder.  I digress.  Anyhow, after getting my official diagnosis,  I began hearing all the want to be doctors give their assessments and opinions of what I needed to do and I just brushed it off. Reading some of the comments that I read this evening though were just on a whole other level, especially coming from complete strangers, so I am going to clarify some things. Where should I begin? I think I will start with weight gain. Most PWN do not gain weight because they are too lazy to exercise.  Also, i

I know I have been MIA, but here is my newsflash for the day. Just because someone is not having sex does not mean something is wrong with them or noone wants them. Just because someone has alot of sex doesn't mean they are all that. It is time to increase your worth. Don't be an impulse item. What does that mean you ask? Some of you are just advertising anyway you can, putting it out there for any and everyone. Just because you attract alot of attention doesn't mean you are being viewed as someone of quality.  Example: You are in the checkout line at the grocery store and your eye catches some little inexpensive knick knack. You don't really need it or want it, but it is right there in your line of sight saying, "buy my. Buy Me. BUY ME!" So you buy it because hey, it was inexpensive and it was there. If you put it out there, someone is going to pick it up. Increase your value. Don't be someone's impulse item. Next post, we will talk about convenience

They say God will place no more on you than you can handle. I have never considered myself a particularly strong woman. If you think about the many women before me and the countless hardships they endured, my life has been cake. I have all my limbs. I didn't live in an era of slavery or segregation. I haven't had to sleep outside, well not for an extended period of time. If I were to sit down and take inventory of my life though,  I suppose there would be an interesting little Lifetime movie there. I don't think about them or acknowledge them though because that is where my true strength would have to lie in my ability to accept all that I have accepted.  Now, God may not be giving me a choice. I love my little peanut even though she is not even here yet. I will love her regardless and I pray with all my heart that she is born perfectly healthy and happy but should that not be the case, I know she is still a special miracle from God. I don't know how it is determined