I will admit that sometimes I let people get in my head. Sometimes I do it to myself. I feel guilty. I feel like maybe I didn't try hard enough, or maybe I am just not strong enough. I let those little voices get to me, the ones that say maybe you should do this or maybe you should try that. I won't lie and say it doesn't make me feel self conscious. Today I was forced to remember what it was like before I stopped working fulltime. I was remindedhow it feels to jist hope you make it through the day without wanting to just drop to the ground. I was reminded what it feels like to not know if you will make that walk to the bus stop. I remembered what it feels like to be layed out on the ground in the front yard of some stranger, or if I am lucky enough to find some alley near enough that I can get out of plain sight. I remembered every humiliating moment someone laughed or said something catty when I had am attack. I also remembered that after all of yhis I have kept going and I have done most if it with little to no help. So for anyone with an opinion on what tgey think I can, or should be doing, they can kiss my mother fukcing asparagus biscuits 100 times over. Not one of you will be there to pick me up when I literally fall.
Narcolepsy: Idiocy vs Actuality
Today I was reading an article that a very special person took the time out of her life for. She took the time to let strangers see what it is like for her everyday living with Narcolepsy. It was not something she had to do but something she wanted to do in an effort to increase awareness. Being PWN's, (persons with Narcolepsy ) we already know there is a stigma attached to the disease. Yes, it is officially classified as an auto-immunological disease as well as a neurological disorder. I digress. Anyhow, after getting my official diagnosis, I began hearing all the want to be doctors give their assessments and opinions of what I needed to do and I just brushed it off. Reading some of the comments that I read this evening though were just on a whole other level, especially coming from complete strangers, so I am going to clarify some things. Where should I begin? I think I will start with weight gain. Most PWN do not gain weight because they are too lazy t...
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